God Speaks Through His Word

I am reading through God's Word this year with a friend of mine. We all need accountability! We are using the book For The Love of God by D.A. Carson. Anyway, today the Lord continued hammering me about who He is and how much He loves me. The first chapter I read this morning was Job 38. God is speaking to Job after Job and his friends have guessed and guessed at why God would have allowed such attrocities to happen in Job's life . . . (God had allowed Satan to take everything from Job including his children and possessions). God answers Job's questions with His own questions. He asks Job during a terrible frightening storm "Who is this that darkens counsel by words without knowledge? Now gird up your loins like a man. And I will ask you, and you instruct Me?" Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Tell Me, if you have understanding." God goes on to question Job in the rest of the chapter. God's Word is timeless. God is also questioning me for questioning Him! Who do I think I am? Who am I to question God in His ways? He has purposes beyond my miniscule life, purposes that I cannot know outside of my earthly bubble. I have strayed back to a time before my salvation . . . a time when I thought the world revolved around me. How could I revert to this? I know that God spins this world around Christ. He wants me to be Christocentric. God wants more out of us than mere understanding. He wants my life to revolve around Christ and His purposes. I revert to being Birch-centric. How doesthis story end? I could not help but skip forward to Chapter 42 as Job answers "I have heard and my eyes see You, therefore I retract and I repent in dust and ashes."
If this was all there was to God's Word then we would be left with a very different God than I know. Yes, the God of Job is the God of Jesus Christ, but there are so many other attributes of Yahweh. The second chapter that I was to read this morning was Luke 23. My God is One of balance. He is sovereign and thank You God that You are loving and merciful! Luke 23 is the trial of Jesus and His crucifixion. Pilate tells the chief priests "I have found no guilt in this man."
But they creid out all together, saying "Away with this man, and release for us Barabbus!" God forgive me!!!! I am the chief priests! I am Barabbus! I crucified my Lord (chief priests) and I was the guilty man (Barabbus) that was freed because of my Saviours death, burial and glorious resurrection!
In case you are wondering, this is the love portion of God. He gave His Son for a rotten, stinking onion like me who continues to question His love for me even today. Oh, forgive me Father. Holy Spirit please take prayers to the Father that I don't even know to pray so that my trust, faith and love for Abba Father will be strengthened. Continue to burden me with the empty souls who do not yet know of this love. Burden me to action. Weigh me down with their souls.